The clouds sit very low today and some are caught on the mountain peaks, making for a gloomy drizzly overcast day. But on a positive note, it is more like a warm spring day.
My mood has been more like this over the past month. We have had n snow but lots of rain or overcast days. I have mild SAD but this year it seems worse. At times I wish I was a bear and could hibernate for the next two months and wake up in spring - a new world and a new beginning.
Part of this mood is grieving over losing my cat Joey - still going over the what ifs and what I missed. I know it was meant to be but it seems so final. After losing so many pets over the years, I realize that when it is their time to go there is nothing that can change that. I have seen cats survive incredible odds to live long lives and then others succumb early on to sudden illness. I think that their lives are predestined and they have a finite time to experience life on earth before they return to spirit. Knowing that doesn't make it easier to handle losing them .
Dark and somber, the mountains still cast their spell on me.
“Faeries, come take me out of this dull world,
For I would ride with you upon the wind,
Run on the top of the dishevelled tide,
And dance upon the mountains like a flame.” - W.B. Yeats